• Heather Lynn


I needed a mental break, because I was having a mental BREAK.

He told me he would be home after he watched the fights at the bar, married for 16 years you flow.

2am, and I begin to feel the panic, I text no reply, I call it goes straight to voice mail, his phone is either dead or he has shut it off, I'm feeling anxious, the mental what if's playing every possible scenario.

3am and I know the betrayal, my heart pounding and it hits me, I can't do anything about it right now and I snap.

A snap, a break in my power, for me, screaming, recklessness, a revolt against the darkness of the empty room, shaking, wailing. I am not sure how long I remained in that state, I was alone. I fell asleep, woke up heavy, still alone. This was not the first time I had faced the betrayal, but the very first time to experience the complete loss of physical control. You don't forget the moment you break, you remember exactly how it feels.

I booked a flight the next day to visit a close safe friend, spent a month in mental processing, I took a mental break.

We each are experiencing life as we know it, I am learning everyday about living and I know nothing until I do. I hope you are safe, I wish you all the strength you will ever need, and courage to face everything life teaches you.

*Disclaimer - This blog is not intended to be a replacement for medical or mental health treatment.


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