I Am Safe, for Now
Updated: Oct 29, 2020
Tonight I totally hit the wall, my anxiety went through the roof, I can't even say exactly what happened, one moment I was getting along just fine, and the next my heart racing and I started thinking about everything all at once, and I just broke down.
I am seeing a therapist, I've been going once a week, I feel like I connect with her, she's not pushy, she lets me share what I want, as I am ready. I haven't told her everything yet, I'm just taking my time.
And then tonight comes, I'm sobbing uncontrollably, I have no one I want to open up too, I remember my therapist telling me I could call in an emergency situation, she also gave me this paper with a grounding technique, she said it works for people with anxiety.
I found the paper...
The 54321 grounding technique
5 things you can see
4 things you can touch
3 things you can hear
2 things you can smell
1 thing you can taste
I see, my couch, the grey blanket on my couch, my white coffee cup, my war and peace book, and the controller to the t.v.
I touch my phone, my face, the soft grey blanket on the couch, and my wedding ring.
I hear people talking gently in the next room, the dogs paws on the hardwood,
I smell the clean clothes in the dryer, and my coffee.
I taste the salt from my tears.
I take a deep breath, and feel the relief.
I am safe, for now.
Story inspired by an anxiety attack.